Why do I take pictures? Why do I make art? Why do I enjoy drawing? Why is it important that I create?
The easy answer is that I enjoy it, that I was made to create, and that it's one of the things that I am best at.
The real answer... *sigh* The real answer is harder to find.
When I was little I created to express myself. In high school I photographed things to share my perspective with the world. I noticed that I see things differently and that people appreciate it when I show them the beauty that I see in the world.
Another thing that I did in high school was search for the difference between living and really LIVING. I did not really find an answer but discovered that a large part of it is just being aware of what is going on both inside of you and around you. Looking not at what things appear to be but gathering the gut to look behind the curtain at what things really are. Then you can find what is really important, what you should do, and what gives your life joy. This is something that I would love to share in my art... but I just don't know how (yet).
In my freshman year of college, making art, especially drawing, challenges you to really LOOK and SEE. The process of drawing and photographing involves discovery and putting pre-set expectations of what things are out of your head. So right now the best conclusion that I can come up with is that I draw and take pictures to discover, to express, and to share. What I would like to do is not only these things but also question, inspire and change.
Why do I enjoy creating?
Enjoyment, in my opinion, is related to fulfillment. Sweating and pondering and working at something then sitting back and being able to say "I can't believe I actually did that" is one of the most constantly fulfilling experiences that I have. In art, one can always be better, more realistic or dynamic or abstract. I can always aim to be better and I can constantly practice and grow. This, to me, is an extremely challenging and exciting thought.
Now to the big question, why is it important that I create? I feel like it's my duty, my contribution to the world and to God's Kingdom. I also feel.. incomplete to an extent when I don't create, as if I'm not being myself.
Maybe, by creating things, I'm really just creating myself
and that is where the satisfaction comes from.